I’ve been going through some crazy imposter syndrome the last few days, among other anxiety.

I am nearing completion of my art book, and I’m also close to finding out if I’m to be accepted as an art vendor at a convention this year. I’ve never sold my art at a convention before, so I’m nervous.

When I look at other vendors and I see all the cute or interesting things they make, I feel very inadequate. How does my own stuff compare? Do I even deserve a spot as a vendor? I’d be taking up a space that someone more talented than me could be using - or at least someone with something less niche. I feel like people would prefer something more wholesome or relatable than someone who draws dark, kinky things.

I recognize that there are people who love what I do, including friends and family, and I’m forever grateful to them. But my inner feelings are in conflict.

If I’m approved, I suppose I will have to trust the judgement of those who want me there. I’ll probably feel better in some ways, though more nervous in others. If I’m not approved, I will feel less pressure, but I’ll feel as though my thoughts of inadequacy have been verified.