I have been in an artistic rut for a couple of years now. Anything I make has gone unfinished, or takes an exceptionally long time to do. Because of this, along with the current climate of social media and everything else falling apart in this world, I’ve become much more apathetic and cynical.

For the last few days I’ve decided to take a break from most other social media and just do a mix of browsing creators on here at all skill levels, as well as posting some of my stuff. There are so many talented people on here, and new creators with potential.

It reminded me when I first started using Newgrounds, back when the site was pretty new. I think I was around 12. There were so many goofy and edgy things back then. I used to think things like “I wish I could draw, and maybe even animate”. I used to think that if I had the ability to draw, I’d make stuff all the time. Yet here I am now, barely doing anything for months on end.

It’s not just depression or lack of motivation. This year I’ve been diagnosed with two very crippling diseases. I’ve run into a lot of physical difficulty with making things on top of everything else. But spending the hours I have the last few days browsing all the interesting things people make (instead of waiting for Twitter to chuck something nice at me while I wade through a mire of stupidity and doom) has helped bring back some of that lost motivation. I am hopeful it will lead to me being able to make things again.

I hope other artists who are feeling the same way with social media and other sites try out Newgrounds and see if it helps spark something in them again too.